I’ve felt like an outcast many times. But now I’m hanging out with a new group of friends, and I can barely even call myself an outcast anymore! They are so awesome to be around and *sigh*, I just love them so much! I wish my other friends were happy for me, I’m smiling so much more than the beginning of the school year, it’s insane! But I’m starting to wonder… did I ditch my friends. I mean, I don’t think so… they talk drama literally all the time and I don’t like it. They told me not to hang out with a friend I call my brother… I kept some space from the ones who helped me on crutches… But did I ditch them?
Ever since I’ve stayed away from drama, I’ve barely had problems at home. “No drama at school means no drama at home right, baby?!” my dad said to me with a bright smile. “Ye-yeah! That’s so true! YES!” I said to him in reply.
It’s like a huge weight being lifted from my shoulders. I laugh SO much in a day. I’m exploring new things and learning how to ‘man up’ to teachers when I get in trouble. To be honest, whenever I got in trouble I’d go to the bathroom and break down crying like an idiot…. now I just stand strong, respectfully of course, then, when they walk away I laugh with my friends. “It’s not a big deal!” I’d say.
But the only thing keeping me at 99% happiness, is the 1% thought of me ditching my other friends. Hopefully I’m not ditching them… I know how much I hated being ditched… I don’t know what to do… I really want to buy them a cute little gift as a thank you for crutches.. but I was told by my dad that I shouldn’t have to buy my friends. I haven’t bought my new group of friends anything and they’re still texting me.
I think I’m going to write a jumbo sweet card to them. Just so they know I appreciate everything.